stressss!

Finals week uuggghh



I've done too many project... Too many finals! Someone heeelpp.

Will 11th grade be even worse?!

i hate being sick

I hate being sick so much. First, my eyes feel all rusty the day before, then slowly minute by minute i feel my nose get clogged up, then my eyes are all sensitive to light.

Then when I go to bed, I cant breathe.

The next day I feel worse. My nose runs, my head feels weird..

And all day my nose is clogged and only one of my nostrils is runny. >: and i cant sniff it back in my noooseee. baww. I ate like 2 cans of chicken noodle soup though, and a huuge orange.
I just wish we had some cold medicine in this house OTLL

cute

I want to buy something cute for myself~


A cute dress! A cute skirt! I want to feel cute!
Lately, I feel really cute in my grey skirt, black top, and my favorite black thigh-highs. I need more skirts though... I need money bawwwww.


...For some strange reason, I've been getting a little afraid of the dark again.
I need a choco and a flashlight to keep me safe from things in the night. ;_;

i love my friends~

2009 wtf

man this year is shitty as hell so far.


Okay, so I got super depressed, and ran away from home on the 17th of January. I seriously did not get very far. I ran to the bus stop accross the street, then took the bus for about 5 minutes, got off at a QT because its a certified Safe Place. I talk to the manager there, and he's all worried, so he lets me call a teen help line.
The lady is pretty nice, and me trying to be a good kid, i tell her i wanna call my mom to let her know Im okay. We do a three-way, and my mom screams and yells at me to come home and that the police are looking for me. I tell the manager I am not ready to go home yet, so he locks me up in the back of the store and does not let anyone get to me. After a while, two policemen kinda force their way through, and after talking to me and checking my bag for drugs, take me back home in the cop car.

My mom and I ignore eachother the rest of the night, and the next few days are just tears and blood. Soon after, my mom decides to try and convince me that she got a restraining order againt choco. Bullshit.

She didnt even know his last name. Soon I found out I cant see him by HER rules but Im fine with the law.


Anyways, she soon cancels the house phone service, and my cellphone has been canceled for months now, so Im left contact-less. Im grounded from the PC/Internet/friends/life and can only take my dog out for a walk before sunset.

My parents now keep an extremely close watch of my school performance, and my mom has me going to a Psychologist.. Psychiatrist, whatever the hell they are. For a while, the relationship between my whole family improved becuse of this, but now it has turned to hell. I seriously havent left my room for anything but food/pee/school in almost 4 days now.


My life really has turned into hell.




But on a brighter side, I bought a body pillow. Here, meet my waifu who will soon be on it.

mari reporting in!

A Mari is in Mexico now! Oh man i was dying on the plane. My stomach was dead and i was sick from lack of sleep, and infront of me was this screaming 2 yearold, and then this little 6 yearold boy from spain that would just talk about everything. My sister fell asleep on me the whole way and then sometimes near the end, the 2yo kid looks over at me and drools on my leg. (º Aº;)

Ive been sleeping all day now. I finally got my dollfie head. DDH-01 eyeholes open! Ordering the body soon. Left that in California for now, since I wanna go to the VOLKS store later.. Anyways, yeah! Now I´m in mexico and tomorrow we should be leaving to the beach. fufufufu sukumizu in a public beach

As for my christmas (btw merry late christmas to everyone who even reads this) the 23rd I spent the day with Choco. I had my favoritest foods ever ( CURRY AND UDON FUCK YEAH. ) and then played taiko at gameworks all day then we went shopping for a sports bra lol and then the day was relaxing! ...where is the tilde on these keyboards...

the 24th my mom woke us all up at like 7 am to get ready to drive to california, and i picked up the doll head on the way. We got to long beach like at 2pm, and we did absolutely nothing. Same on the 25th. Nothing. I doodled all day though and started EOII



Mana: Thanks for all the comments!



btw rin and shana up there were my christmas doodles lol

buuu

i hate when i get all lonely. i start freaking out. i wonder if im too needy. i wonder if i look too needy..


baw i just want some love~

>: damn

These are the symptoms, right?

Symptoms of Stress
1. Anxious
2. Mind Racing
3. Chest Palpitations
4. Problems Concentrating
5. Anxiety
6. Easily Irritated
7. Avoiding People and Responsibilities
8. Focusing on Negative Thoughts
9. Anger Issues
10. Headaches
11. Digestive Problems
12. Muscle Tension and Pain
13. Sleep Issues
14. Fatigue
15. High Blood Pressure
16. Weight Loss or Gain
17. Skins Problems - breakouts, rashes, hives
18. Hair Loss
19. Decreased Sex Drive
20. Nervous Behaviors - nail biting, pacing,
teeth grinding



This is totally what's happening to me:

Symptoms of Stress
1. Anxious
2. Mind Racing
3. Chest Palpitations
4. Problems Concentrating
5. Anxiety
6. Easily Irritated
7. Avoiding People and Responsibilities
8. Focusing on Negative Thoughts
9. Anger Issues
10. Headaches
11. Digestive Problems
12. Muscle Tension and Pain
13. Sleep Issues
14. Fatigue
15. High Blood Pressure
16. Weight Loss or Gain
17. Skins Problems - breakouts, rashes, hives
18. Hair Loss
19. Decreased Sex Drive
20. Nervous Behaviors - nail biting, pacing,
teeth grinding


And my mother is just making it even worse.

"YOU STILL NEED TO MAKE UP THAT QUIZ--"

"Mom.. Mom.. Please.. Stop... You have no idea what kind of stress Im going through right now.. I've been working on class non-stop.. I'll do it, just stop yelling.."

"I DONT CARE IF YOU'RE STRESSED OR WHATEVER IS WRONG WITH YOU, SCHOOL IS YOUR ONLY RESPONSIBILITY AND THAT IS ALL THAT SHOULD MATTER."

I've randomly broken down crying about 3 times today, and even once with Choco. We had lunch and suddenly I start bawwing. I'm getting really cranky with all my friends too. I keep snapping at them and telling them to shut up.


sigh.

ooowww my hands~

Ah.. Such a tiring but fun weekend!

So Friday Choco picked me up early and before we got home we picked up some breakfast at Denny's ( GOD DAMN THOSE WERE HUGE THICK PANCAKES). Dan and Tempered woke up as well soon after we got home. All friday we moved stuff, then around 6 or so, we decided to relax for the rest of the day. Ate at a burger joint, then went home and played Hokuto no Ken for the rest of the night. DECIDE THE DESTINY.

Ohh maan while we were playing that, David watched me while I ran down the stairs. Of course, tits jiggle, and he noticed, so he says "OH! I JUST SAW SOME JIGGLE RIGHT THERE" I'm pretty sure I was probably blushing. >: He asked me what my sizes were and mentioned that he thought I was flat. WHY DOES EVERYONE THINK I'M FLAAAT?~ I guess it wasnt as weird as I acted at the time, but I'm just slightly shy when it comes to my chest.. :V I STILL LOVE DAT ASIAN THOUGH.


Anyways Choco took me home, I went to bed, and man I dreamt I was painting this resin kit of... Reimu I think. It looked really nice, and then in my dream someone started knocking. Only a few seconds after I realized it was actually Choco knocking on my window. My phone wasn't working, so i didnt get any of his calls. He took me again to the new house, and then to the old one so Dan, Choco and I (And later Tempered, when he finally woke up) could finish cleaning the house. At around 7 we decided we were done for today, so we went to a cheap delicious chinese buffet place, then gameworks. Today I had decided I would wear this one shirt that I thought was nice and comfortable. It can get a little revealing at times, but I had a jacket most of the time. Anyways anyways at Gameworks, Choco and I played alot of rounds of Taiko no Tatsujin, enough to give me a shitload of painful blisters, and Choco, Dan, and Tempered went against some guys in KoFIV.

AND OH MAN DAVID APPEARED OUT OF NO WHERE AGAIN AND SINCE I HAD THAT SHIRT ON HE TOTALLY LOOKED AT MY TITS MORE. I was kinda embarrasedddddd. But he said they were nice. >:


Stilllllll~ ahh why am i so shy about those things! I'm glad I'm confident around Choco though~ <3 Baww i wanna see him more.


i leave you with some gachimuchi x toradora

ITS TIME I MADE AN AI SP@CE ENTRY, [ pt 1] | sup blog

The game starts, after you've made your character and gone through a series of questions, in a typical train scene. You get a few shots of some character models, and some characters from the islands.

Although there's not much to choose when you make your character, every single option is sooo adorable. I went with shortest height, green eyes, and brown long hair.


I arrived in Akihabara and I was 1) lost out of my mind and 2) fucking amazed. :V

It really looks just like Akihabara. Every single building is exactly the same, and oh man it looks great. And of course, the giant niconico screen. It doesnt really play silly things like MADs but some crazy stuff has been up there, such as some mix of visual novel characters with LSD: Dream Simulator for PS1 that played once. Usually its game or anime openings though.

Infront of Gamers!

After a little bit of exploring and asking a few people, i figured out how to move on. I decided to move into Shuffle! island because.. it's Shuffle! and I dont know shit about D.C.II. As for the CLANNAD island, eh. Anyways, I go into my appartment, and I have someone waiting for me~
She just comes in all shy and adorable. I named her Thessaly, in katakana

I have to wait until tomorrow for more recent screenshots because server is under manteinance~

_____________


AS FOR THE MARI PART OF THIS BLOG.

Maaan, school is almost over.

Anyways, Ive been playing that all day, and melty. I can do more of 2ab5bc j.bcbc airthrow noww. When Im not awake though, I'm getting horrible sleep. It sucks. I keep waking up all night, and I dont feel rested even if I sleep for more than 8 hours. Choco let me borrow his nintendo jacket to use, but I just end up cuddling it to sleep, and yet that still doesn't really improve my sleep. It helps a little, I guess. Sleeping with choco is really good sleep, and I'm sure that what adds to the good, appart from being with him~, is his mattress and his arm as a firm pillow. And the warmth. Human warmth is so much better than any blanket~




Also I think my normal ponytail is going to officially change into a side ponytail. It looks cute. :3

Everyone at school was all like "OH SEE MARI LOOKS CUTE. NOT TOO MANY PEOPLE CAN PULL THAT SIDE-PONYTAIL THOUGH... MARI CAN.. CAUSE SHE'S JUST MARI."

I dont know if that was good or bad but...!~

fun day~~ <3

Today was awesome. :3

Choco picked me up from home at.. 9 am or so, and we went to go see the new house before we got to his house!


The houses were amazing. It feels like you're in a completely different state! Anyways, we went home and took a nap, then after eating like two bowls of his delicious chicken fried rice, we headed to a bakery that I really wanted to go to. Arai Bakery! It was delicious Japanese pastries.


They had these adorable cream puffs that had little cream bunnies inside, with little happy faces and all~

Choco bought a slice of strawberry cake


And I got delicious fruit tart.
We ate them when we got home. :3 ALSO, right next to the bakery was a Japanese supermarket, so we decided to go in there soon. Choco and I instantly fell inlove. They had EVERYTHING. Choco bought himself like.. 25 dollars of sake. kekekeke And! Just as we were reaching the cashier, we saw something beautiful~



After finishing Seven Samurai, Choco drove me home and we shared the meronpan.

IT SERIOUSLY TASTES LIKE CONCHAS WTF. It was way better than the meronpan I baked. ;_;

october animefest @ atomiccomics

Saturday was the October Anime Fest at Atomic Comics down in Mesa. Glad I was finally able to go after like 5 fests passing by. OTL.

Anyways, I left with my mom to her store, and got dressed there, since she said she wouldnt allow me changing at choco's house. Choco pics me up in reimu cosplay, drives me back to his house, where mailorder, lokanas, and carlos are laying around in the livingroom. I felt a little weird, barging into the house in cosplay, but whatevez. I changed back into normal comfy and went out to socialize with everyone. I rested a little on choco's bed while mailorder set up TF2 right next to Choco's computer and they teamed up on dat tfdouble. David leaves at about 2:30 or so, and soon after, I get dressed and leave with chocobutt.

The anime fest was small. It was an okay store, although more actual comics than anything anime.

Guess the Anime Tune! Choco and I fucking owned the whole thing. I didnt know any of the naruto openings and stuff though lol.

Toiea, a classmate from Design, who was amazingly moe as Rin. Poor girl made that costume in a week~
Mailorder, who was pretty late, but arrived awesomely as always. SUP BRO.

Mailorder: So hey, choco, can I.. Take a picture with your girl?
Choco: Suree~
Mailorder: You choose the pose!
Choco: Alright.. Hm.... Dave! You be the capitalist pig, Mari can put her foot on your back.
Mari: lolwat
Mailorder bends over, I step on his back, and make a sexy face. Choco takes the picture and THIS MASTERPIECE WAS CREATED.

Ah~ I look so big!! >:

Afterwards Mailorder took a manly picture of us. THIS PHOTO SPARKLES WITH GAR.

And lastly, Team Companion Cubes in Iron Cosplay. Toiea, Nicole, Rose and someone else.

MORE PICTURES SOON. THIS WILL BE EDITEDDD.

Also, thanks to AZHP and mailorder for the photos

CTRL+ALT+DECULTURE

キラッ☆

SO ADDICTED TO THAT SONG.

Anyways today I didnt go to school and enjoyed a restless morning in pain. baww.
Gonna try Shin Megami Tensei online: IMAGINE with Choco if it works :3

oh my poor chocobutt~

Sigh~ Sometimes I worry about him like if he was my own kid or something OTL

Choco started work--well, training a week ago pretty much. He's been pretty stressed lately since he goes in at like 5 am and works until 3 PM or so. I know he's been doing perfectly in his training. My smart chocobutt aced all his tests and got the highest grade on his final in training (even though he missed ONE question. and he's still raging about it) but even then Im sure the fact that he's not home every day now is stressing him a bit.

Im doing my best to make him happy and help him relax when I do come over, and I know he's happy with my efforts, but how I wish I could be there everyday when he comes back from work like a good waifu~

And take his non-existant coat and then cuddle/etc stuff like that

Goodnight~

new shoezz

Spent the day with choco~ It was nice~

Got new shoes too!

they were 3 dollars kekekeke

r.i.p Jalapeno/Dyfish

you were..

a boring fish >:

But rest in peace in fish heaven.

2006-2008 (I think)



..man, that was one old fish

Marineer Stories Pt. 2 out of 3

(The California and on the way to and back etc etc) I dont really feel like typing the same way as before, so I'll just keep the title >:

OKAY

SO

BEFORE AH WENT TO MEXICO. WE GOT ON A PLANE TO LA. Southwest Airlines, nothing much interesting, I played Taiko and Phoenix Wright while I waited at the airport, and then i passed out on tha airplanelol. I wore this shirt that Choco gave to me as a present, cause I wanted something that had atleast some value to me so that I wouldnt feel like I was too appart from him. Bawwwww.(The shirt was previously his. GUYS MEDIUM GO. ) Anyways, I wore that shirt, with some.. kinda brown and green plaid shorts that I had bought from Forever21 along time ago, and my new loves-- my new (well, used) Rolands~ (RH-50 GO! ) and new black converse :3 I really like that outfit! Anywaysanyways, on the plane I sat by the wing, so after a while of staring..

BEFORE STARING

AFTER STARING ALOT

Kinda looks like the cardcrusher facelol.

Anyways! We got off and rested at the toolshed ( which isnt actually that small. o_o ) and then the next day, spent the day at court with my stepdad. It was pretty great. I was playing alot of Phoenix wright in there, so I explained it to my stepdad, and then he got all his attorney friends and made me explain it to them..

And they ended up turns yelling out OBJECTION lolololol. Other than that I was sleepy all day long. I missed my incognegro too much to sleep the night before. >: We went around to some malls, and then went home, if I remember right. The day after, it was Saturday, so we went early to downtown L.A., which was kinda uncomfortable to me.. I mean, I like it.. a little bit.. Kinda.. But it just felt tooo dirty.


Anyways. I enjoyed heading to the toy district, where I bought some charms for my DS, and two pins, I think I lost one in Mexico though.

Im gonna go sleep so ill finish this tomorrow

Marineer Stories Pt. 1

When ah was a little Marineer, Mama Marineer ahways took us to Mexicow to visit the rest of the Marineer fahmily. Of course, ah never waanted to goo. But ah hahd to anyways.

This time, Mama Marineer left Big Sister Marineer in Marizona, and took us to Meeexico. Ah was stuck here for twooo whoole dang weeks. The first week ah crieeed like a little baby marineer. I wanted to go back to Marizona sooo bad. Ah missed my Choconeer so much ah thought ah was gonna die. I went to Aunt Marineer to get mah Mari hairs from mah headz cut, but the woman cut them tooo danggg short. >: Then the rest of the week my butt turned into like a Sentry gun that hand been sapped by no spah yet. Every time something passed into my stomach I pooped and pooped.

Moctezuma's REVENGE.

Sometime that week, there were alot of soldiers on the street we were on, and they closed the street off. It was like 2 am and they all had guns so we all went to hide in another room for like an hour. Turns oyr they were examining a car and they found two dead bodies in the trunk. >: And that was like.. 10 feet away from the house we were in.

The second week ah went to the teef doctor to get mah teefs fixed. I was hoping he'd take my train tracks off mah teefs, but he said next time. I had to sit there like a dumb Mari with mah mouth open wide while he fixed my teefs. Then for like the rest of the week, my teefs hurt like crazy! They still hurt. While ah sat around playing my DS (Dual Sentry :V) ah steamrolled sum prosecutors in Phoenix Wright, and finished the whole game. Then, I played Taiko no Tatsujin and started reading red and blue notes as easily as stealin sum intelligencez. Raight now aahm playin sum Pokemans.

Just now I got back from the beach, were hopefully I tanned a bit. I made some sand castles, almost died from a wave, scraped my knee on sand, went in the pool, etc. My buttcrack must be full of sand :V

Some noteable things ah, the precious Marineer, did:

- Saved a Monarch butterfly. Poor little lady was strugglin on the floor. Ah put some leaves and water and flowers by it and it worked. after a while it started flying again.

- Built a ton of paper boats and let them float down the flooded streets :D Im such a skillfull Marineer.

- Dreamt I was punching my sister, and in my sleep I punched my cousin in the face irl.


Ah'll tell you little youngin's more of mah stories when I get back to Marizona tomorrow.

mashimaromitainafuwafuwanyanko

stiiilll in mexico..

I bought 4 wall-e notebooks..

and chocolate.

so booooooreddddddddd.. OTL



anyways this damn OP is getting me so hyppeeee


AM I USING THAT RIGHT? LOLOLOL]

watashi MAAAATSU WAAA

ITSUMADEMO MAAAAAATSUU WAAA<

still in mexicoo.. Its been raining, so its really humid. orz.

I went to go get a haircut yesterday, and honestly, it came out horrible. She cut my bangs too short and too.. square-ish.. but this morning after a shower i managed to fix it a bit.

I wanna drawww! They have Wall-E notebooks at the store next door so maybe Ill go buy one to draw on it or something.